Hockey and Juice

I went to a hockey game last night. My mom got two tickets as a thank you from a dentist she refers patients to, and gave them to me. The seats were excellent... right behind the goal in the third row. Now, I don't know much about hockey (or really anything at all) but let me tell you that this is the only way to watch a hockey game. You can actually see what's going on, players hit the glass right in front of you, and also sometimes hit each other right in front of you! It's just a really fun experience. But here's the real reason I wanted to go in the first place...

I happen to know that a lot of the guys I played softball with last summer work events at the arena to raise money. This obviously would include Juice (you can read about him in the archives, starting at the end of last October... there were way too many posts about him to figure out how best to get the background info out there if you don't already know). I did not know for sure if he would be there last night... I just knew that it would be my best opportunity to possibly see him. So I went.

I can't lie. I still think about him all the time. Hmm, maybe not all the time... but at least once a day, a song will remind me of him or something. Usually I just roll with it and move on. But I do still miss him. I still wish he was in my life. I still don't understand why he isn't. I still want him as a friend if it can't be anything more than that. But it wasn't until I saw him last night that I realized how much these things were true. I saw him, and my heart dropped.

We interacted a couple of times and things were as great as usual between us, considering I hadn't seen him or heard from him in about 3 months. (BTW, has it really already been 3 months since I last saw him? Flipping crazy.) I won't get into all the details of he said this and then I said this and then he said... it was all just friendly banter and discussing playing softball again this summer (which he does claim he's going to do, we'll see). And then when I went and said goodbye to him, he told me he would call me "sometime next week." Again, we'll see. I know from past experience that he won't. There's maybe a 5% chance of him actually calling. (Because I like making up odds).

And yet, the naive girl in me still wants to believe. She will hold out hope that I will get a call from him. She will do her best each day to keep from thinking about him, but when she goes to bed at night, she will be sad that once again, her phone didn't ring where his voice was on the other end. The adult woman knows that I should put him out of my mind and not think about him again. Because then she won't hurt when he doesn't call. She won't have her hopes up.

I tell myself that I'm not waiting for him. That I just haven't found anyone else to occupy my time. But maybe I'm not putting myself out there enough. Maybe I'm unconsciously waiting. Maybe I need to get back onto eHarmony and meet guys there. At least then there's potential to meet others who might help me stop wishing Juice was the one.

Happy Belated V-Day...

... or as I was calling it "I'm So Happy I'm Single" Day. Which I wasn't really, but I'm trying to take a more positive approach to things. Did you all have a nice Valentine's Day? I actually found myself more distraught about being alone on Friday... which may have just been because I knew I wasn't doing anything the next day, so when plans also didn't formulate on Friday? I got a little down.

Valentine's Day for me brought me candy (chocolate and mallo creams that I bought myself and conversation hearts from my parents), 2 bottles of champagne, and an interesting horoscope. Yes, you read that correctly... 2 bottles of champagne. And since I've already said that I didn't have plans for the day, you can correctly infer that I did the damage to those 2 bottles all by myself. Which I normally would be horrified by, but I'm not. I think because I was in positive mood and I wasn't drinking to drink away my sorrows. Plus, I hadn't had anything to drink for about 3 weeks prior... so don't go thinking I'm an alcoholic! And the first one I opened, I struggled with, trying for about 5 minutes to get it opened. When it finally did, well let's just say I ended up wearing a lot of it... on my clothes, on my face, in my hair. And a good bit more ended up on the floor and, as I discovered yesterday, on my wall. So yeah. It clearly wasn't exactly 2 full bottles.

Anyway, so this horoscope. Let me preface this by saying that I don't normally read my horoscope. I think it's fun, but not something I seek out. I don't read too much into them because, well let's face it, most of them can be applied to anyone. But there I was, before the champagne drinking commenced, checking my email on Yahoo. They had an headline about your love horoscope for the day. I figured, what the hell, this could be good for a laugh. I was surprised, to say the least, when it told me, in practically these words to: get all dressed up, head to a hot nightspot by myself, pick out the hottest guy in the place, and have a one night stand with him.

Umm...? What kind of horoscope tells someone to do that?! Hilarious. Granted it also said that the one night stand could lead to something more, but I'm pretty sure it was quite okay with things if it didn't. Needless to say I did not follow my horoscope, although it might make for an interesting pick-up line to try sometime. Also, go me for not texting any exes after drinking that night! Anyone else have fun stories from the day?

Update: Grammys and Introducing Dr. H

So I want to first say that when I wrote my Grammys post yesterday, I obviously did not have all the details about the Chris Brown/Rhianna situation. When I first heard about the domestic altercation, I assumed it was Rhianna, but no reports specifically said that, so I figured it must have been someone else and that Rhianna didn't go to the Grammys to be supportive of her boyfriend. Now that other details have come out saying that it was indeed Rhianna, I feel like some people may take what I wrote yesterday to be bitchy or whatever. I hope she's okay and I hope for the best with Chris Brown as well. And when I said "alleged assault" (or whatever I said... I know the word alleged, or allegedly was in there somewhere) it was just because of that whole innocent until proven guilty thing... not because I was trying to defend him or say that I didn't believe he did it. Okay... I feel better now...

So as many of you know, I work with my mom. Yesterday she was talking to my dad on the phone when S came to tell me she was taking a quick break and so I headed out with her. I come back from that to be told that my dad wants me to call him because he wants to talk about rappers. Umm... what? So now, for your reading pleasure, is the conversation that ensued with my dad (edited for length).

Dad: I watched the Grammys last night and had a questions about rappers.

Me: Okay, what's your question?

Dad: Well, Lil' Wayne won. And he was also performing. But all rap sounds the same to me, so why did he win? What makes him better than the rest of the rappers?

Me: Well, he had a good album. His beats and lyrics are good. Plus he was performing a tribute to New Orleans, which is where he's from.

Dad: Well I couldn't understand half of what he said. Do you think I'd understand more if I listened to more rap.

Me: You mean any rap?

Dad: Well yeah.

Me: Maybe. You should have seen the performance where 4 rappers performed together. Then you'd at least be able to compare them.

Dad: Yeah that would've been good. Which rappers performed together?

Me: Let's see... there was TI, Lil' Wayne, Jay-Z, and Kanye West.

Dad: Oh wow. That would have been great.

Me: Well your birthday's coming up. Do you want me to get you some rap CDs?

Dad: Umm... I don't think so.

Me: I have a Kanye West CD already. Do you wanna borrow it?

Dad: Oh that might be good. Or I could get some on my iPod from iTunes.

Me: Okay. Don't worry, Dad, I'll get you all hooked up with some rap.

Dad: Good. That way I can start rapping with the homies.

S and I later decided his rap name would be Dr. H. Oh, yeah. And that birthday he's got coming up? He'll be turning 60.

Grammys

Okay, so first off I started writing a post last Thursday while I was waiting for a patient (or maybe it was Friday...). Anyway, the patient got here before I finished the post and I never got back to it. And I don't think I'm feeling the same way as I was then, so I'm probably not gonna get back to it. But I didn't want you to think I had been truly gone all week. Now, to the topic at hand...

Did you watch the Grammys last night? Thoughts, anyone? The Grammys are really the only award show I watch. I often haven't seen most, if any, of the movies up for Oscars (or Golden Globes) so I don't have much interest there. And with the Emmys, yeah I may watch some of the shows, but not all of them, and so again I have little interest. But since I like a wide variety of music, I find that I usually know most, if not all, of the songs that are nominated. Plus, it gives me a good excuse to dance around my living room and act a fool during the performances. Here are my thoughts...

• MIA performed on the day she was due to give birth?! Insane!! now, I've never been pregnant, but from what I hear by the time you're 9 months along, you don't generally want to move. Let alone get onstage and perform in front of millions. I think this may make me like her a little more. Or maybe not... I can't really decide. Something about it also sorta horrifies me.
• Blink-182 announced they are getting back together. This? Makes me so happy. Now I realize, Blink is pretty much a punk band and their songs usually have little to no actual substance. But I have loved them (mostly due to my absolute infatuation with the drummer Travis Barker... and if that doesn't prove I have an affinity for bad boys, I don't know what will) forever. Plus, when a song of theirs does then have a deeper meaning it makes it all the better. I literally screamed like a 13 year old girl when they made their announcement.
• I was sad that Chris Brown and Rhianna weren't there because of the whole Chris alledgedly assaulting someone. I think I've mentioned my love of Chris here before. His songs always make me wanna dance. Anyway, I was however not too upset that Rhianna therefore wasn't able to perform. I like her music usually, but she was gonna sing "Disturbia" which I really don't like and think it's overplayed.
• I was pleasantly surprised that Robert Plant and Alison Krauss won so many awards. While I will admit that I only know one song of their collaboration, I find the pairing to be really unique. Plus, they beat Coldplay, who I like alright, but generally don't get the hype surrounding them.
• I liked all the unique pairings throughout the night. I always find it entertaining when two musicians who you'd never think would be together, perform together. I was trying to think of a favorite, but can't. Maybe cuz my brain is slightly not working this afternoon and can't think of many of them.

Okay, that's it. Anyone else have anything to share?