Friday, August 14, 2009

Updates, Updates

Okay, so jumping back into blogging after taking some time off? Clearly hasn't happened too well. But I do have some updates for you all, and some free time here at work (well not really, I may be procrastinating), so i thought it was a perfect time to share.

First, I am not doing so well with Molly's Challenge that I wrote about last time. First week in, I had made it to the gym 5 times, like I hoped, but had gained 2.2 pounds. I was bummed, but knew I hadn't eaten well so knew it was my own fault. Second week: gym 5 times, treadmill on additional day, and no weight gain. No weight loss either, but no gain. I was still pretty bummed. Of course, the next day I weighed myself also, which I don't normally do, and I was down 1.8 pounds from the day before, so I took it. Of course since then I had pizza twice and missed the gym yesterday. We'll see how the rest of the weekend treats me... I don't have high hopes because I will be celebrating pretty much all weekend.

Celebrating? Oh yes, celebrating. Lots and lots. Because my Boy Wonder proposed last night and I'm officially engaged!!!!! The whole thing was wonderful. I was having a bad day yesterday, so he told me he was going to pick me up from work and take me out to try and cheer me up. First we went and he got me a manicure, and I thought that was going to be it. Then he started driving around, and stopped by a boathouse near the river in town, with a beautiful view of the downtown skyline. Thinking we were just stopping there since I mentioned I had to go to the bathroom, I didn't see it coming when he stopped me, said, "I have a question to ask you," and got down on one knee. He said some beautiful things (what all they were, I couldn't tell you because I was too shocked and busy saying yes before he even finished talking), and then took me out to dinner, where he had already secured a bottle of Dom.

Needless to say, my day got a lot better!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

What a difference a few months make...

Oh, hello. Who am I? I'm Jenn. You may not remember me. It's been quite a while. How have you been? Me? I've been very well, thanks for asking...

I never planned on being a blogger (at all, really). But more importantly, I never planned on being a blogger who went and dumped her blog after finding a man. Whoopsie. That's kind of like ditching all your friends to spend time with only your man. (I haven't done that). But I realized that I didn't have much to say anymore. Most of my posts were about boys, flirting, dating, hooking up, etc. And now there's just the one man, and he's wonderful. And I mean wonderful. It may seem quick, but we're already living together (I know, what?!?! And I didn't think that was blog-worthy?!) and have actually already looked at some sparkly rings for the all-important finger. He hasn't proposed yet, but I know he's going to. And he's already talked to my parents about it, and my brother and sister-in-law, and his mom, and his friends, and random strangers, and pretty much anyone who will listen to him. As far as the bling goes, he's already told me to pick out whichever one I want (that we've looked at and discussed) and it's mine. Trust me, this is not as easy as it sounds.

Anyway, I'm trying to get back in the swing of things with this here blog. Thanks to Molly over at These Little Moments. She has issued a challenge. Specifically, it's about losing weight and being healthier. Since dating Boy Wonder (my nickname for him, since everything seems to work for him!), I have gained SO MUCH WEIGHT! Remember, back in January when I made New Year's Resolutions? And how one of them was to lose 30 pounds? And then how I did a 3 month up-date on those and had lost 12 pounds? Yeah... about that. Now, to meet my goal of losing 30 pounds, I actually need to lose something like 40. (Maybe I'm rounding up... I don't actually remember the exact number that I started at. I think technically I need to lose 38 to meet my goal of losing 30 this year). I've gained a whopping 20 pounds since dating him! I know this happens when you first start dating someone... you go out to eat more often, portion sizes get bigger, you order pizza every Friday for movie night, etc. but this is not good. So, since Molly is hoping to lose a little bit of weight, she's offering a support group of sorts to help anyone who wants to join. We're doing this for the next month (27 days, I think, to be precise) and I'm going to try and lose 5-10 pounds and get to the gym 5 times a week for at least 30 minutes. I'm going to be keeping track of my journey on here for the next few weeks.

I'm not trying to turn this into a weight-loss blog, but maybe getting back in the habit of writing about the challenge will help inspire me to write about other things as well. Now if I could only figure out what to write about...

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Long Overdue

So first and foremost, I want to assure you guys out there that I am indeed alive. And I'm still reading your blogs. I may not have written in a while, or commented much, but I do truly enjoy reading what you've written everyday.

I've been a bit MIA lately. I don't have a lot of excuses. I don't have any excuses. I've just been lazy I think. (Okay, maybe a little busy at work also, which is where I usually write). Anyway, my good friend chickbug pointed out that she noticed a little change on my facebook profile recently and thought it was blog-worthy. My relationship status has changed from "Single" to "In a Relationship." Yes, folks, the man I wrote about last here and I have decided to make things official. He is really such a wonderfully sweet guy. He treats me with respect, takes care of me, thinks about me when I'm not around. He treats me like a princess. I know things won't always be wonderfully perfect (like when he compared me to the 40 Year Old Virgin... he meant it as a complement, but I'm still trying to figure that one out! haha), but things are really great so far. Obviously any concerns I had before I met him have fallen by the wayside.

That's the only major thing going on here with me. We are a full 3+ months into 2009 and it has been great. I'm doing well on my New Year's Resolutions... 9 out of 26 books read, down 12 pounds, taking more pictures, and one credit card paid off. As I stated before, I think this year will be the best year yet.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Date Update

It went very, very well.

That's all I have time to write right now. :)

Friday, March 13, 2009

The One Thing I'm Picky About

So I'm going on a date tonight. It's an eHarmony guy, so who knows. We actually went to the same high school, although didn't know each other back then (he's a couple years younger than me). We've talked a few times on the phone and the conversations are really good. We have the same sense of humor and the words just kinda flow. He's funny, nice, friendly. We know a lot of the same people, so I feel like we kinda already know each other.

Here's the problem. I hate to admit this, but I'm a girl who needs to feel that instant connection when I meet someone. Like I have to feel like I want to rip off your clothes right then. Not that I would. Let's make that clear... NOT THAT I WOULD. But I have to at least feel like I want to. If I don't feel that way, no matter how good the date is, no matter how much fun we have, no matter how sweet/nice/funny/good for me he is... well likely it's never gonna happen. I might try to force it and go out with you again, but probably every time it will end the same. No feelings of wanting more and therefore not working out. It's frustrating cuz it's the one area in my life that I'm picky about. And I try not be, because it makes me feel like a bitch.

So while I'm looking forward to the date, I'm kinda not looking forward to it also. I think we'll probably have a good time, but if that connection isn't there... well I don't know. I'll let you know how it goes.

In other news, I went over to my brother's last weekend cuz he was having some people over. Three of the guys there were brothers and all three of them have hit on me in the past. Not at the same time. And not that they all knew it (I don't think at least, cuz that would be weird). It was a little awkward. There's not really anything more to that story, just wanted to share.

Happy weekend all!

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Ego, much?

Okay, so I know at the end of my last post I said I probably wasn't really going to contact The Reason. But I did. I figured, what the hell? I haven't talked to this man or seen him in a year and a half, we got matched again, which I know he knows about, so I'll just send him a message to say hi. So this is the message I sent him:

Hey (The Reason)-
So apparently eHarmony and Dr. Warren really want us to be together, given the fact that we were "matched" again. Haha. Seriously, I just thought it was funny, so decided to drop you a not to say hi. Hope all is well with you. Let me know if you want to get together for a drink sometime.
Take Care-
Jenn

No big deal, right? Just a friendly gesture. He didn't even have to respond if he didn't want to, since I didn't ask him any direct questions. And yet, this is the response I got:

Yeah I saw that too, funny how eharm works. I hope you are well too and Bruno (my dog) is behaving. I've been hanging out with this girl I met at a bar. Don't know if it's gonna go anywhere as she is way too young for me (23). Given our history, I don't think it's a good idea for you to be involved with me at the moment cuz I'd probably hurt you again and I don't want to do that. Maybe later on we can get a drink but I'll let you know then. Hope your fam is well and it was good hearing from you again.
-(The Reason)

Umm... maybe I'm wrong, but I don't remember saying anything to him about getting involved with him again, did I? I was just trying to be nice, which apparently in his world that means I want to get back together with him. Wow, not so much in my world... I don't want to get back together with him. I don't want to date him. I don't even want to be friends with benefits with him. I thought that maybe, MAYBE, we could be friends. Not even friends who see each other or hang out a lot. I guess more just friendly. (Okay, I admit it, I wanted to just use him for his pool over the summer).

Needless to say, I didn't respond. I felt like the fact that he would even assume that I want to be "involved" again just shows that I've matured past the situation while he hasn't. My friends think I need to write him back and take his ego down a bit by telling him that I didn't want to be involved with him, that I was just being friendly. But I don't think I need to. Thoughts?

Monday, March 2, 2009

Matched Again

I know, I know. I'm a horrible blogger. I haven't been around. And when I have been, the stories have not been all that interesting. Last week I had a painful episode of tendonitis in my wrist and was told, by doctors (fine, yes they were also my parents) that I should try to not type as much. So I took a break. I'm back. We'll see if I can find something fun to write about today...

I'm ready to date, to get back out there, to meet new guys. Problem was that I hadn't been out in weeks and I wasn't meeting too many guys sitting at home by myself. Strange. S is dating a new(ish) guy (he's actually her ex from high school. they've been broken up for like 6 years, but started hanging out a while back and decided to try it again). Couple that with the fact that it's remained winter, despite my hoping daily that I'll wake up to warm weather, and S and I have not gone out since the first week in January. Yes, I had gone to that hockey game and then actually went out that same weekend with a friend, but that was the first time in literally 5 weeks I had left my house for an evening. Then I came to the realization that, yes, I still like Juice but clearly he is not ready for me. Will he ever be? Who knows. If it works out that I'm still single if/when he decides he is ready for me, then maybe we'll try again. But in the meantime? What the hell am I doing wasting my time pining away for someone who clearly does not want to be with me? Nope. Done. And all of this combined to make my decision a firm one. I joined eHarmony again.

I haven't actually met anyone yet. Or even gotten to the "open" communication stage with anyone yet. But we'll see. I'm hopeful, but mostly it gives me other guys to think about. And it's fun to get new matches every day! Even when one of the matches is none other than... The Reason.

That's right folks. The guy I dated for a year, and then some, showed up as a match in this morning's batch of emails. Wow. Now, let me say that The Reason has a very unique name, so I knew it was him immediately. I just started laughing. Seriously? I mean, seriously eHarmony? Again, wow. I guess I shouldn't be surprised, given that eHarmony is how he and I met and ended up dating in the first place and given that he recently broke up with his girlfriend. I just wasn't expecting it. Even funnier... when I logged on to eHarmony later to send some communications and check out my new matches, I clicked on "Who's Viewed Me?" (which is new to me... last time I was on there, they didn't have this gem) and found that he indeed had looked at my profile. And, while he didn't communicate with me, he also didn't close me. Maybe he doesn't ever close anyone... but he had to know it was me. Granted I chopped my hair off after we broke up, but I have some of the same pics on myspace and facebook as I do on eHarmony and I know he's seen them there.

The over-analytical part of me immediately goes, "if he knew it was me and didn't close me, does that mean he's open to talking again?" And that makes part of me want to send him a message over facebook or something, making a joke of us being matched again, and seeing if he wants to get a drink sometime, as old friends. I don't think I actually will. After all, I've worked hard to move on with my life. And I want to move forward, not backward. But if nothing works out soon, it may just come to that! Ha ha